:(

I'm sorry is all I could say! 

I know that I am not the right one for you, I know that I am not worth it to be with you, I know that I am nothing compared to you. Even if you have all the reason to leave me. Still, you choose to stay with me.

I always doubt your feelings towards me, I know it's wrong but I just can't help it. You said you're getting tired of me for always being so doubtful but here you are, still my boyfriend. Sometimes I wonder how will I cope or how will I start to move on again if you decided to leave me again. Am I going to be depressed again? am I going to not eat again? or am I not going to have some decent sleep again?. All of the terrible thoughts and feelings? I felt it when you left me before. Now that you are mine again, it's like I am pushing you away from me.

I hate myself more than you'll ever know coz here you are, you're my boyfriend! the guy who a lot girls want to be their boyfriend and probably they are more worth it to be your girlfriend than me and you still choose me! 

I cry a lot lately, I just want to be with you for the rest of my life, I want to have as many as 5 babies with you, I just want to be with you!. Sometimes I wonder how will I accept if you told me that you are no longer in love with me, how you don't want me in your life any more and how you're tired of me. I always think that and I always cry for thinking that. Yea I know that I am completely insane but!

Doubting you always is the reason why we always fight, I hate it but I can't help it.

I know that I think too much, I speak without thinking what or how will you react after, I'm selfish. I know it.

But please just know this.

Even if I'm always like this, I am afraid to lose you and I am afraid that you'll find a girl who is more worth it than me. I Love You more than you'll ever know, I Love You more than I Love myself. You are my world, you always make me happy, I love how you make smile even if you're just being sweet to me. I just love you. I am deeply in love with you.

SORRY!